Okay I need to type this out. I don’t know how else to calm myself down. Hey: I don’t think you realize how much you hurt me on a daily basis. From your facial expressions to your sarcastic remarks, to what happened today. The simplest things can hurt. You’re insensitive. You don’t realize how insecure I am. You know what, I’m fucked up. I know this. I know that I’m “insane” for thinking I’m overweight. I know that I’m “weird” because I have so many emotions. I know that my family’s divorce isn’t the only thing that’s happening on this planet right now. But you know what, they’re pretty important things in my life right now. If you don’t want to be involved with a psycho girl, then you sure as hell shouldn’t be dating me. I’m unstable. Regardless, I love you more than anything or anyone. I would marry you right now if you proposed to me. I just want to be told that I’m special. Because no one else will do that for me. No one will take the time to say, “You know what Ellen, you’re a really cool person. I’m glad I’m around you a lot.” I organize my entirety of life around you, and I feel like what you give back to me is measly and small in comparison. I just want to be respected and wanted. It is every girl’s dream to be wanted by their boyfriend. Not just in a sexual way, but in a loving, appreciative way. “Hey, I really want to see her today. I really want to take the time out of my busy schedule to text her that I miss her and that I’m sorry I can’t hang out at the moment, but I’m excited to see her when I can.” Every girl wants to be treated as if their boyfriend is seeing them for the first time. I just don’t want to be considered, “the norm.” I want to be an excitement, a priority. But maybe that’s too much to ask. I don’t know anymore I’m just hurting I don’t know what to do
"The whole world wants you to be miserable. It wants you to put your head down, sigh to yourself and give up on being happy, and I know just as well as anyone that sometimes, giving up seems like the only option, but if you take one thing from this record I hope it’s this. Don’t give those mother-fuckers an inch. Stand your ground every chance you get because everybody deserves a chance to be happy."
Dan “Soupy” Campbell, The Wonder Years lyricist and vocalist, on the message conveyed by The Upsides. (via xdoctortx)
